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Sunday, March 20, 2022

“…I did everything for attention. When I woke up and realized my true nature, all of that fell away…”

ON MY EKHART TOLLE group, a person posted:


“…[paraphrased] …I used to be fully consumed by my ego.  I did everything for attention. I woke up and realized my true nature, all of that fell away.I  keep running into one thing consistently, neediness. It was who I had been, so I see it clearly.  Some people absolutely need reassurance constantly. They must consistently be apprised of your intentions, and being that I don't function that way anymore, I don't even think of constantly being complimented, respected, reassured, admired….. And then when someone brings it to my attention (that they are resentful because I didn't recognize or appreciate or understand their efforts and needs) I feel the need to pull away because I know I can't constantly feed their ego/story...I love them, and want to be around them, but it's genuine love and want, rather than one fueled by a lack.

Here is a crux that hit home for me:

“…I did everything for attention. When I woke up and realized my true nature, all of that fell away…”

This is actually a huge learning  curve opportunity for me…although I agree with the general responses that suggest cessation of “looking” and “searching “— non-action and clinging will bring the right flow of what you need, without action. That aside…

THE LEARNING MOMENT FOR ME WAS IN THE EXCELLENT AND WELL-INFORMED STATEMENT OF YOUR PROBLEM! 

We want to do good work, dit well, and accomplish life’s goals…but for the wrong reasons. 

We want to be reassured, complimented, NEEDED. CONSTANT ADMIRATION, RECOGNITION and ATTENTION. It’s exhausting.

I am re-reading A NEW EARTH and going through his comprehensive podcast series with Opra…who produced the podcast examination of this book/work.

I listen and read and I even see the issues and problem pretty clearly…but I am yet to “…woke up and realized my true nature, all of that fell away…” 

You state here the goal of my spiritual life. How did that wake up..true nature…falling away thing happen?

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